Mind Control, Parapsychology, and Media Disinformation


dis·in·for·ma·tion (dĭs-ĭn′fər-mā′shən)


1. Deliberately misleading information announced publicly or leaked by a government or especially by an intelligence agency in order to influence public opinion or the government in another nation.

2. Dissemination of such misleading information.

Yesterday, a recent acquaintance sent me a link to a New York Times book review titled “When the C.I.A. Was Into Mind Control” by Sharon Weinberger, author and the Washington bureau chief for Yahoo News.

(In other words, Weinberger is supposed to be a real, legit reporter)

I have several thoughts about this article that I’d like to share, but first I must say that I’ve never heard of most of the people discussed in the article.

I don’t recall hearing about Gordon Wasson, who’s trip to Mexico whereby he came across “magic mushrooms” was actually funded by the C.I.A.

I don’t remember learning about Sidney Gottlieb, the supposed “brains behind MK-Ultra” that, among other things, employed experiments with mind-altering drugs, such as LSD, to achieve a type of “mind control” on their victims. (I’ve heard of the MK-Ultra program, of course, and of them using LSD; I just don’t recall reading about Gottlieb.)

I don’t recall reading of Frank Olsen, an Army “scientist” who worked with the MK-Ultra program, and who jumped (or perhaps was pushed) out of a hotel window after having been given LSD without his knowledge.

So, much of the article is new information to me simply because I don’t normally research out things that have to do with mind control, the history of it, etc. I’ll save that research for those who haven’t been a victim of mind control agendas. Not only do I not want my own memories tainted, but reading too much about it can also be triggering to me and upsetting.

Which brings me to the topic of this article.

There are several things that really bother me with this article, and I’ll list them one by one.

“When” and “Was”

The very title “When the C.I.A. Was Into Mind Control” irks me. There is a very strong suggestion just through the title alone that immediately causes the reader to begin to form a conclusion such as, “Well… sure, the C.I.A. used to be into some pretty nefarious stuff, but they don’t do stuff like that anymore. Weinberger, a real legit reporter, said so.”


Uh-huh. Sure. I’ve come across people who actually believe and defend, against all evidence to the contrary, that line of thinking. I just stay away from them. Their willful stupidity is not only frustrating to the nth degree, but also dangerous.

But where are the reporters who will actually report TRUTH? Instead, “legit” reporters and “legit” news sources are being used, among other things, to actually cover up illegal, immoral, and deviant disgusting activities, some of which are being perpetrated by those who are in very high levels of government.

This isn’t a surprise to many of us.

However, there’s an additional problem that this lack of reporters with integrity is creating (a lack of reporters with guts — backbone, grit, fortitude, gumption… balls): in an effort to find sources of news that will actually report facts and uncover the political lies that serve to keep the vast majority of the populace under a type of “mind control,” so to speak, those “truth seekers” within the masses will often come across a type of alternative news source that I refer to as “fringe news.”

(For instance, some of the “christian” fringe news outlets are the Hagmann report, GenSix Productions, and SkyWatchTV, although there are many, many more like them, both “christian” and non-christian alike.)

Now, I’m not suggesting that all alternative news sources are “fringe” sources. But, from my observation and personal experience, it’s all too easy for the individual to get tangled up in the fringe when they are on a “quest for truth,” particularly when that quest is leading them in every direction other than the properly exegeted, written Word of God.

While on the surface these fringe news sources appear to satisfy the need for people to find out what is really going on underneath the surface, from what I have observed and experienced, it often begins a campaign of “fear porn” that is designed to keep people’s eyes on the problems that are created by an increasingly powerful and expanding satanic network, rather than the Solution, which is Jesus Christ and the Truth found in the Word of God. From there, the tendency is for people to begin to quickly follow these “truthers” down the proverbial rabbit hole of Satan’s underground maze of lies, and eventually, they begin to seek after, follow after, and teach blatantly Satanic doctrines.

And all of this is in the name of “truth.”


The issue I have with all the surrounding conversation about MK-Ultra doesn’t really have a lot to do with the NY Times article in a direct way, necessarily, but it just reminds me of something that I’ve brought up here and there, and I want to discuss it again, but in a more specific way to mind-control programming.

What bothers me is that the perception of people causes them to automatically link mind-control programming with MK-Ultra, as if that’s where it begins and ends. This is a perception that is fueled, in part, by information coming not only from mainstream and alternative media, but also from the “fringe” media that I mentioned above.

But MK-Ultra was/is not the whole of the mind control agenda. It is but one section of it.

Unfortunately, from what I’ve observed, all too many people practically fall over themselves trying to label themselves as “MK-Ultra” in the same way that others fall all over themselves to try to label themselves as “former Illuminati.” And what ends up happening is that those people who have been so horribly and adversely affected by those horrendous crimes within the MK-Ultra program, are lost and overlooked by the many who, for one reason or another, erroneously label themselves as MK-Ultra.

It’s the same principle I touched on in a previous article, “Human Trafficking.” People’s personal experiences are needlessly being embellished either by their own self or by others, and it is creating an atmosphere where true survivors of such crimes are in danger of being delegitimized.

Don’t misunderstand what I’m saying. I do not doubt the actuality of the MK-Ultra program. I do not doubt that there are victims of this horrific mind-control experiment.

What I do doubt, however, are the claims of some I have come across who say they are “MK-Ultra.” Some of those people are undoubtedly purposefully and intentionally lying about their past experiences. But I believe that by and large, a majority of those people I have come across who’s testimony I question, have simply succumbed to the societal pressure of labeling themselves with an identity that is not an accurate portrayal of what they have actually survived.

For instance, within the many online support groups I used to be a part of, this phenomenon is such that it appears that “MK-Ultra” has, much like the term “former Illuminati,” become very nearly like a badge of honor, and if one does not claim to be such, then their experiences are overlooked and their voice is not heard.

Here is how this dynamic very nearly played out with me:

1. My programming started breaking down.

2. I sought answers and became a part of several different online survivor support groups. Some were specific to mind-control, others were more generic towards dissociation. And some were Christian groups, and others were open to all religious or non-religious views.

3. With perhaps few exceptions, those people who claimed to have been victims of mind-control agendas identified as MK-Ultra. (I do not actually recall any exceptions, but for the sake of erring on the side of caution, I will say that there may have been a few exceptions.)

4. I had never heard of MK-Ultra before, so I did a little bit of research. Not a lot, but enough to think to myself, “This doesn’t sound like what I went through. So perhaps I wasn’t a victim of mind control…?”

And so doubt about my own memories began to settle in, starting a cycle of denial that was very difficult to extract myself from.

5. After a while, listening to other people’s stories began to cause me to believe that perhaps I was MK-Ultra, too.

For example, they would talk about how a spinning chair was a part of their programming. Since I remembered a particular chair that was associated with a specific event (not the regular programming chair I talked about in a past chapter of my bio… but another chair), I began to wonder to myself if that was what I had experienced: this “MK-Ultra spinning chair.”

And not having any other label with which to describe and explain my experiences to others, I was very tempted to start claiming to be “MK-Ultra.”

Thankfully I got out of the groups before I did so.

There’s a lot to my experiences with that particular chair, and I think I’ll probably write about it later, but the main point I’m trying to make here is that I nearly fell prey to the trap of placing myself inside a box that the larger group expected me to be in — that, in fact, the majority of the group had placed themselves into — and slapping a label (an identity) on myself that did not accurately describe my experiences.

So, after getting away from the “support groups,” and taking the time to think back more objectively on my experiences, I became comfortable with the fact that just because my past experiences with trauma-based mind-control programming are not in line with what the MK-Ultra program was (or still is, assuming it’s still in operation), does not make my experiences any less legitimate. And I also became comfortable with not feeling the urge to neatly label and categorize my experiences in the same way as others. Nor to let others do the same with me.

Yes, I am a survivor of mind-control agendas.

No, I am not MK-Ultra.

So what does all this have to do with Weinberger’s article, except in an indirect way?

Maybe nothing of significant consequence.

But the tendency for the media (mainstream, alternative, as well as fringe) to focus simply on MK-Ultra is perhaps, in my opinion and experience, one reason why some survivors of mind-control agendas feel the pressure to incorrectly identify as MK-Ultra when they are not.

Victims of mind-control agendas outside of MK-Ultra are simply not given a voice, and are left feeling invalidated and even worthless.


But the biggest grievance I have with Weinberger’s article comes down to the last two paragraphs, where she writes:

Given that this is a biography, it’s worth noting there is one Gottlieb endeavor omitted from an otherwise comprehensive book, the poisoner in chief’s role in another equally questionable, though less harmful, endeavor: parapsychology. Near the end of his C.I.A. career, Gottlieb awarded a contract to the Stanford Research Institute to see whether “psychics” could be used to help spy on American enemies.

They couldn’t, but that didn’t stop American spies from pouring millions into psychic research for more than a decade, long after Gottlieb left the C.I.A. Perhaps the kindest thing that can be said about what may have been Gottlieb’s final contribution to secret science is that at least, in the end, no one died.

First of all, “Less harmful”…?!

“…at the least, in the end, no one died”… ?!

How nice that Weinberger has the luxury and the emotional/mental capacity to express such a cavalier attitude towards a C.I.A. program that a.) did exist, as Weinberger has at least admitted; and b.) negatively affected many lives, including those of children who were part of this “psychic research.”

At the least, she owes the victims of such crimes an apology for her dismissive attitude expressed in her article, and ideally, a rewording of her article to clarify her viewpoint and to reflect at least a modicum of compassion for such victims.

Would that be so difficult? To express a smidgen of compassion for people who’s lives were ruined by C.I.A. experimentation?!

Please apologize, Sharon Weinberger.

Second, it is rather shocking, to say the least, that, in spite of Weinberger’s repugnant attitude, these last two paragraphs of her article actually validate what I experienced as a child in the 1980’s.

I haven’t heard anyone talk about this astral spying program before. Maybe they do talk about it, but since I left the groups I was in, I haven’t heard the latest talk. But I know for a fact that there was what Weinberger called a “parapsychology” agenda within the greater mind-control experiments that were going on, because as a child, I was involved in it.

I think I’ve talked about it some, but I haven’t really gone into a lot of detail. I will probably go into a little bit more detail later, but for now, here’s a very basic overview:

As a child, under the direction of my main programmer, “Dr. A” (who, among other things, was C.I.A., by the way… I can’t remember if I’ve publicly mentioned that fact or not), as well as other men that I saw there, I and a group of children were trained and sent on assignment to spy on meetings that were supposedly taking place between key military leaders and government officials in particular countries that I found out later the U.S. considered to be enemy nations.

The group I was in was composed of all girls. There were other children in other groups who reported back to their own programmers/handlers, and so there may have been boys in the other groups, but I’m not sure. All I know for sure is that in the group I was in, we were all girls.

We would meet in the offices that were in the underground military facilities there in SoCal, and convene in a large room. We were given a target, and we would astral travel to that person in whatever meeting they were having at that moment (this is what Weinberger refers to in her article as “psychic” spying). We would then report back to our programmer/handler with anything we were supposed to remember, including conversations that were had and the people who were there (the programmers would often show pictures of different people that we could then point out as having been in the meeting; or if there were name tags or name plates available in those meetings, we would read those and report back; or if names were spoken at the meetings, we would try to remember those and report them to our programmer).

Now, it’s possible that these “meetings” were not real meetings. In other words, I have thought that it is possible that these “meetings” were, in fact, training sessions to see how well this experiment would work in a real-life situation.

This certainly seems to be a good possibility, especially if one considers Weinberger’s assessment to be true: that this C.I.A.-sponsored-and-run “psychic spying” endeavor was essentially a flop.

However, considering that the entire premise of Weinberger’s article is off (specifically, the strongly alluded-to assertion that the C.I.A. “doesn’t do stuff like that any more”), thus making Weinberger to be an unreliable source when it comes to the truth behind mind-control programming, there is still a strong possibility that this program was successful.

What I do know is that I don’t think I was very good at it. At least, Dr. A didn’t seem happy with my progress with this particular assignment. Part of the problem that I have mentioned before was that I, as the front alter, did not like to astral travel (“flying,” as I called it as a child). It frightened me. There were parts of me who enjoyed such travel, but I did not, and when I would “come to” in the middle of astral traveling, I would quickly go back inside my body. So, this was one problem that made this particular assignment difficult for me to do well.

Dr. A did seem happy with at least one of the girls in our group, however, leading me to the conclusion that it is possible that there was some level of success within the C.I.A.’s foray into parapsychology as a way to gain intelligence.

But I don’t know one way or the other.

And, I daresay, neither does Weinberger, regardless of what disinformation she may have been fed and subsequently disseminated to the public.

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  1. Great clarification from a person that’s been there. You did a great job Loren. This evil still goes on everyday. I’m leery of people who say it doesn’t

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    • I noticed a few weeks ago(Sept. 2019) that there were several ladies with web sites who alleged to be DID/ SRA and they seemed to be almost bragging about it They were all attractive and young, using a lot of makeup and costumes. It was weird. Hasn’t come up on my youtube site for a while. Love you and Carolyn, very helpful to me.

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  2. Every time I try to ‘like’ #9 on the Grid, my mobile goes weird. Just wanted to say that people think the Netflix programme ‘Stranger Things’ is Fiction – when clearly it’s not. Thanks for explaining the rainbow! Love and light to you.


    • I’ve seen promos for “Stranger Things,” and it just looks like it would be triggering to me, so I’ve never watched it.

      Not sure why the “like” buttons aren’t working for you. That’s weird. 🤔

      Thanks for reading, though! 😁


  3. I can relate to how that headline Irks you! I’ve noticed a trend in recent years with the wording/phrasing of headlines that really Irks me. Stuff like – 5 things to know, what you need to know, etc. It’s been subtle so most don’t seem to notice. If I mention it to people I can tell they don’t see it or understand what I’m saying. You are the first person I’ve encountered who sees this, or at least has identified it in this situation. I see it as a form of mass mind control utilizing words/phrasing that uses the power of suggestion to insinuate thoughts and ideas subconsciously. Seems to rely/prey on humans tendency to make assumptions before knowing facts. It appears to be one of the many facets involved with what I see as the dumbing down of the population. A lot more I could say about this, but too involved for a comment here. Thanks for what you do.

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  4. Hi. Thank you. Today Im’ having trouble thinking. I think my programming is really on the fritz. I don’t have any help. Do you recommend a safe place I can look on-line to find out if this is crumbling programming? Do you know of an ‘I’m really stuck.’ helpline?
    Have a blessed Passover.


    • Hi Joy,

      I’m sorry to hear you’re having problems right now. 😦

      I don’t know of any safe place, unfortunately. All the resources I’ve gone to in the past, hoping for answers and help, have offered triggering, misleading, confusing, and often frightening information. I can tell you what I do when programming is causing problems (or if I think it might be that). I simply verbally give it to the Father and ask Him to take care of the situation in whatever way is in accordance with His will. Sometimes I’m aware of Him taking care of the problem, sometimes I am not, but either way, I try my best to focus on something different. Such as housecleaning or exercise. Or I take a moment to go outside and smell the flowers and listen to the birds. Or I lie down for a bit to rest. Or I write things down in order to make sense of them. Or I read His Word. Sometimes I begin to feel better within a short period of time, but sometimes it takes a few days to really feel more at rest.

      I pray your thought process becomes clearer today, and that you are able to find rest within your spirit and your mind. ❤


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